然而,了解adhd并没有让我的生活“走上正轨”。As Russell Barkley says, "You have a disorder of performance, not knowledge. You know what to do but can’t do it. You have a disorder of when and where, not the how or what. Your problem is not with knowing what to do, it’s with doing what you know." (from 2012 Burnett Lecture) 它给了我过去17年各种状况的解释,让我能更清醒的认识到自己在经历什么,为什么会发生,却无法“拯救”我瘫痪的执行功能——我对国内仅有的两种一线药物均反应不佳,精神科能帮到我的只有这么多了。